Finding Your Way Through Change. Why "Just Jump” Is Sh*t Advice [E49]

[00:00:00] Welcome to the podcast. This episode is flying in from the future, and I'm recording this very close to Halloween of 2026. This episode was meant to drop in February of 2025. So I want you to keep that in mind. My cadence is gonna be different. My microphone's gonna be different. I tried to do some sound treatment to make sure that it was a little bit more tight.

But I didn't take out much because I know that if I tried to re-record it, it just wouldn't capture that original essence of the brand, which was the Aligned Alchemist, which was the unscripted path, which is Sunita gets on a mic and just goes on a spiritual quest and a philosophical quest and comes up with gold.

I know some of you guys who love that style are no longer listening to the podcast because the podcast has evolved for my goals. However, I think this is a magical podcast, and yes, I said that. I wanna give you a little bit of backstory on why I believe this is a magical podcast, even though it's gonna make a long episode even longer.

And that is [00:01:00] because I found this episode when I was searching for a different episode. Right after this episode is an episode called Living in the Shell of an Old Life. I am not making that up. It was recorded on the Scorpio new moon of 2025 with an astrologer, and that is the episode that is next. I originally had a highlight reel here, and the highlight reel was created by AI, and in listening to it, it sucked, so I got rid of it.

 So I needed a episode. And in looking for that, there was an episode I wanted to put on here that was an interview I did with somebody else. She gave me the file, and I couldn't find it in my editing software, and this one wanted to be found.

This was recorded in February of '25. It never made it. And something said, "Let me listen to this. Let me see what I can do with this." So I listened to this episode. I shit you not, this [00:02:00] episode was recorded right before Neptune and Saturn were gonna originally enter Aries in early 2025, and that was gonna kick off the new era of business.

It's on the platform. And I talked about it in spring of '25. It's on the platform for a reason. And I said I was gonna talk to an astrologer. Well, let me tell you, that conversation happened, but it never happened because her microphone didn't work. And we never re-recorded it.

Then Danielle and I, a different astrologer, had that conversation a year and a half later, talking about the big shed that was going on. again, the Scorpio new moon. And that is literally the next episode, and I didn't plan that. What I also didn't plan is that this episode talks about snakes and shedding and shedding teachers and shedding fear and shedding identities and all of this shit, and I didn't talk about that Knowing that the [00:03:00] episode with Danielle will be next. When I say I follow flow this is what I mean. Because it always comes up better than I could on my own. So allow me to be wowed and fascinated, and allow me to share my wow and fascination with you. But wait, there's more. But wait, there's more. In this episode, I talk about Aquarius, and I talk about this notion of Saturn and Uranus.

Again, I was talking about spirituality a lot more fall of '24, early 2025 on this platform, which is why the platform was called The Aligned Alchemist and why this might make sense. Danielle has Uranus on the top of her chart, highest most point. She said that in public. I think it's on this episode. I have Saturn at the topmost part of my chart.

She's born with Saturn on her rising sign, meaning where she's born, and I'm born with Uranus. So we're the mirror of one another, and you probably can feel that in the way that we talk. I've got an episode coming up with her that's gonna be dropping in, you know, in November of '26 I talk a lot about the [00:04:00] Saturn and Uranus, and how Saturn and Uranus are the co-rulers of Aquarius, and it's about finding Aquarius tribe.

When you find Aquarius tribe, you just feel like you fit. So that is a lot about what this episode about that's number one. Number two, we're in the part two of the societal shift. Everyone is feeling this. People who thought, oh, year of the snake, you know, ev- no.

2026 is it. Why? Because when the sun moves into Aquarius in 2027, which is a few months, that is considered the Cross of the Sleeping Phoenix. That is what Human Design was designed for. Human Design is highly associated with the sign of Aquarius, because Aquarius is frequency. So when the sun moves into Aquarius, which is late January every year, this year we change the script, and that is what you're feeling right now.

The collective transformation I've documented for four and a half years on The Dark Matter Show

And that platform is shifting and evolving because that initial shed is over. My job as the cosmic messenger, my job as the heretic, my job as the whatever is [00:05:00] over for that. This platform is shifting and evolving. This platform was always designed for 2027, and I never made any bones about it.

Now you can see why it's very important you understand the context for this. So there's that, and there's that. But then I just recorded an interview with somebody. She interviewed me for my podcast. That'll be coming up fall of '26. We talked a lot about my journey as an entrepreneur, the things I've been through.

Some of the shocking things I've Done. And I only share a fraction of them because it's not why you're here. But I just recorded that a couple hours before I found this, and this has, the last 10 minutes, an interesting story. And in that, I introduce this concept of the find your fear formula.

I should trademark the fuck out of that, yes. I'm not a coach, I don't do mindset work, but this is about transformation and shedding in fear, and I think this formula is genius. I think this is genius, and I'll tell you the formula, and you can listen to the rest of the episode if you want. The formula is...[00:06:00] 

Nope, I actually can't remember, and I'm not doing that as a bait-and-switch, 'cause you can listen to the last 10 minutes if you want. And I talk about a story from my life, yet another adventure, and what that find your fear formula could mean for you. Because people tout a lot of stuff about you're afraid You need to just do it.

You need to just take action. And I just recorded an episode, I believe it was the last episode, talking about the visibility wound. people just parrot shit. People just parrot you're afraid. People just parrot it's mindset advice. People parrot it's a visibility wound. Parrot- people will pathologize the fuck out of everything.

 That might be it, and maybe you have a different way. I've taken an insane risk in my life. I've reinvented myself so many times. I'm a Scorpio rising, it's what we do. Not many people do it as many times as I do, but it is the path I've been on

the Aligned Alchemist at its nutshell is honoring the path you've been on and trusting the path you've been on. In that, my message there is that the snake [00:07:00] does not actually shed its skin until it's actually grown new skin. There's nothing wrong with feeling into what the next phase is. That's what I'm doing with this platform that's what you can do in your own life

 I think that you understand that if you don't even listen to the episode, how much this translates to everything that's happening right now. And again, I'm talking to you Halloween of 2026, which is massive shedding from a Scorpio season, and witchy, and all that, and Dia de los Muertos, and festivals associated with the dead.

But what you might not know is Diwali. I'm Indian. The dark moon before the Scorpio new moon every year is considered the Holi, which is the Indian New Year. We are actually, by my way of operating, in the dying phase of whatever 2026 was when I'm recording this. This couldn't have been more perfectly timed if I tried. What's happening right now is we also have Venus [00:08:00] retrograde in Scorpio, which is something that happens every eight years. But the Venus star point we just had will not happen in Scorpio again for over 100 years.

So there's this Scorpionic last shed that is what I call a coalescence, a convergence . Cross of the sleeping phoenix, Venus Scorpio, astrology, other spiritual whatever. We have what I call convergence of this final dying for the new, and you can feel it. If you were attracted to this episode and you're listening, you can feel it.

There's a little fun story about find your fear formula, the FFF, if you will, the triple F. There is some random conjecture about Aquarius, and there is some talk about a snake. If you're interested in more, that's what this episode is about. It's a bit on the longer side for my solo episodes.

And sets us up really well for the conversation after this with Danielle. The whole notion of Uranus is there is no space-time reality. And the whole notion of Saturn is linear time. Saturn can be seen without a telescope. [00:09:00] Uranus cannot be seen with a telescope. In that sits a centaur known as Chiron.

 Chiron is known as the wound in traditional astrology. Chiron, by the way, literally is the alchemist And because he sits in between those two worlds, he doesn't quite know who he is. So a lot of people who bring in Saturnian stuff and Uranian stuff, frequency-based stuff, nonlinear-based stuff, are dismissed by the Earth plane.

And it's hard to communicate what you do. And we are entering the precipice of a time where it's time. And I can tell you as someone who's been waiting, it's time. I know, for reasons I'm not gonna share right now, I know it's time. I was just given another confirmation of that today right before I recorded this intro.

This episode is from February of '25. Right there, I've given you a lot of the episode. If you'd like to listen to the last 10 minutes of the story, it is worth [00:10:00] listening to. That's why it's on the feed. That's why it's important for right now. That's why it's right on time. That's why there is no actual space-time reality sometimes, because the timing of this is insane.

Enjoy the episode

Today we're going to dive deep into something real, fear and transformation. I am someone who has been through multiple business reinventions, blown up their life more than once. And studied a lot of the practical and metaphysical aspects of all of this stuff.

 Today we're going to get real, we're going to talk about fear, authenticity, and why sometimes you need to grow that new skin before you shed the old one. Let's dive in.

 we're going to talk about the energies of Aquarius, what business is going to be in the era of Aquarius. What does Aquarius mean?

 I really go into talking about fear and transmuting fear and how that all relates [00:11:00] to the themes that we're facing right now, as well as some tactical and practical ways that you can work with these energies yourself. Aquarius is. The sign of the future. And Aquarius co-ruled ruled by Saturn, which is. what we can see with time-space reality. And. Uranus, which requires a telescope. Saturn represents the confines of what we know and. Uranus represents. That cosmic. Synchronicity that download that I won the lottery and, I put into a retirement fund into not I invested in, I retire at. 65 because I have a million in my retirement fund and Uranus I went out and bought a $2 lottery ticket and I retired tomorrow and they both are needed on the earth plane. And they're both related to law of attraction. Because Saturn is our mindsets, and what we think is possible and Uranus is , [00:12:00] fuck possible. 

We're going quantum. And you're going to hear that word. Quantum talked a lot. Aquarius is ultimately associated with authenticity. I heard a talk and it's been again, telephone tag around. So I haven't done my due diligence on this. But they say that the highest vibration that emanates from the body. If you were to measure energetic vibrations. The one that is. The most apparent is the vibration of authenticity. I believe that. I believe that. Authenticity is really important. As we enter the age of Aquarius, being yourself, being unapologetically yourself. If you're attracted to me and if you're an Aquarian, you have a bigger mission that you're carrying out. I was thinking about.

I was just thinking about all the people I've worked with and. I don't do one-to-one with normal people. I realized that everybody who's been a client of mine, are all people doing pretty fucking amazing things. They are [00:13:00] game changers. They are healers, they're shamans. They're supporting other entrepreneurs. 

They're doing. Art that is going to transform society. They're all people pushing the envelope. They might not call themselves visionaries. They may not call themselves. Alchemists. I consider myself a visionary. . I consider myself an Alchemist. 

 What alchemists and visionary see is we plant seeds. We plant seeds. For a bigger garden. The work that I'm doing. That has been game changing for them. They're turning around and then impacting. And doing the work they're meant to do. And I think that's a much bigger deal. Then people who are like, Oh, I want to have a big impact. Having a big impact to me has never been what drives me. Drives other people, it doesn't drive me. A lot of times people will say that on stage and to them impact is I wanna have more money. I've shared my thoughts on most of the coaching space. A lot of it is just to make money. they're not actually making an impact. Let's face it because what they're actually doing. This was not [00:14:00] where I thought the podcast would go, but here we're going to go. I see is what they do is they. Turn people off to their mission that they had. There's a lot of people. They wanted to start out doing something good. And they invested in a business coach and they invested in a sham artist or just invested in someone that was above where they should be at that point. 

 What happens is when they lose a lot of money or they're in debt. This has happened to me, although I was able to get out of it. And they just give up. And then they go back to doing something that is unrelated to what they feel called to do. That industry actually fucks up. The situation more than you would know, and I've seen it play out a lot. 

That was Aquarius. That was what wanted to come out. It's a time of authenticity. If you are in places where business owners are talking to other business owners, you're see a lot of people talking about this new paradigm appealing the new paradigm of blah, blah, blah. We're not focused on strategy anymore. It's the gloves are coming off. And if this is really the case.

Then. I am. So thrilled to see it because I've been waiting a [00:15:00] long time for the real players to stand up and. Aquarius in a nutshell is about authenticity. It's co ruled by Saturn and Uranus. What's Uranus. Uranus is the genius. Uranus is quantum Uranus is the unconventionalist. Uranus not only rotates on its side. 

Okay. But it rotates counter-clockwise. It and then Saturn very, very useful, right. We all know when we've had lack of Saturn in our lives. the place becomes a mess. We don't go to the gym. Shit. Doesn't get done. 

 Saturday gets shit done. Right? Saturn is very important. It has been, given a bad rap in Western astrology because people don't actually understand what the term karma means. They've absconded it from the Sanskrit name. Karma means cause and effect. Karma literally means. You clean your room, you have a clean room. 

You go to the gym, you have muscles, or you're in shape. You put in the work, you get the thing. but Saturn is also represents integrity. It doesn't get enough. Credit for that. Saturn represents integrity. It [00:16:00] represents the teacher who knows what the fuck they're doing because Saturn represents the elder Saturn represents wisdom. I personally work with a lot of people who are my age or older, because I feel the wisdom in the reps that they have put in. 

And it's not age-ism, it's just that. It's different. I don't think that age brings wisdom, by the way. There's a lot of people who are old and they've done the same thing their entire life, and they have learned nothing. I'm not talking about these people. I'm talking to people who've fallen and gotten back up. I'm talking with people, reinvented themselves. 

I'm talking about people who've lived through different era's. Of life and challenges. 

 Saturn is wisdom through integrity and time. So I hope this is a return to integrity and I hope this is a return to wisdom. And I hope that this is a return to also taking all of that and adding in the new, fresh energy. People like me. Who live in both of these worlds. We have struggled. Because there was no place [00:17:00] for us.

 Even a few years ago when I was trying to figure out where I would market Human Design for business stuff, other than Instagram, which all seems to be a muddle pot of the same people saying the same shit. When I would try to apply for summits or why I would try to apply for speaking gigs, people were are you a mindset coach? 

Are you a business coach? Are you a healer? They want to put you in a fucking box. And I'm finding that more and more. There are opportunities. For people to be you just to be like, this is who I work with, and this is what I want to talk about. And people giving you a little bit of a leash. To be a little bit more broad and the people aren't are dying out because they're bringing on the same, tried and true experts saying the same shit that is not really pushing the needle forward. If you are somebody who feels like you've been on the cusp of something who feels like you're someone who that wasn't your time yet, hopefully we're at a time where you feel right on time. It is a huge time of reinvention and fresh starts. Things are evolving and pivoting and changing. Saturn forms things if form structures and then Uranus breaks. So when they're working with each other, it'll form [00:18:00] something, it'll break it. It will form something, it'll break it. 

And then eventually they work together and they create something solid. 

 if you didn't know, the Human Design new year is that when the sun moves into Aquarius, so Human Design is very much associated with Aquarius in its own way, 

 there can be a lot of fear around that from a macro perspective and in your own life that you might be absorbing this notion of fear because there's a lot of change in the air. So I want to talk about fear a little bit and I want to talk. About the snake because the snake when it sheds what it does is it grows a skin underneath itself first Then when it knows that it's safe and it has its skin finds a rock or something sharp It'll choose to scrape itself against that object to start the shed and nature will take its course and it's a gradual process Also snakes shed a lot more when they're young Then when they're older, 

Society makes it less okay for us to evolve and change as we get older. Number one, we have a lot of programs and systems in place [00:19:00] to penalize us for changing direction later in life, which brings up fear.

And number two, because we may not see people around us. Making massive shift in life, either out of fear, complacency, excuses, they're comfortable, whatever it is, they're driven to change or they're afraid they can't change.

 What I want to do here is I actually want to go against a lot of the surface level personal development bullshit that is out there. , one of the reasons that I felt compelled to start this podcast is to speak on and have a counter opinion to and a counter educated resource grounded in reality to a lot of the stuff that I see out there in the popular space.

It's very surface. Very surface, very common sense stuff. And I don't find it, motivational at all. And it frustrated me one of the problems I find with generic advice is we don't all feel fear the same way and then it doesn't really resonate with us and we don't see the role that it's actually playing in our lives because we don't actually identify with the generic fears that other [00:20:00] people have.

Going back to the snake, the snake lets itself grow another skin first because it knows it's going to be okay. when it sheds the old one. And why does it do that? Because it will die if it does not have a protection layer first before it sheds the other one. It may die from heat, the sun, predators, whatever.

It's not protected. We get a lot of advice in the personal development space about fear, and it's isms. feel the fear and do it anyway. Just calm your nervous system, control what you can control, follow your excitement, whatever. 

 These are great inspirational quotes. If inspirational quotes changed people's lives, we'd have one of them. It'd be one account that just listed inspirational quotes and we could all go home, right? We'd all need one coach. My neuro linguistic programming teacher, I got certified 10 years ago and he said this 10 years ago.

I'm sure it's even more true today and he said, if all that shit worked, we need one book. We'd all have [00:21:00] that one book, right? We'd have one Tony Robbins seminar and everyone would be transformed and that's not how it works. So when people say generic stuff like you'll never feel ready, okay, fine.

You're never going to feel ready in your subconscious mind. The subconscious mind is the seat of fear. It is the primal place. It is designed to keep you safe. It's always going to tell you that it's not the time, that you're not ready.

 The snake doesn't have that. Snake just follows nature. It just sheds when it's supposed to shed. It knows when it's ready. It knows when to go to the rock and start the scrape. , so I'm not waiting to everything is perfect in your life and everything is ready, but I also want you to feel like you have your shit together first before you shed.

 Everybody out there who's feeling this tension that it's time to shed, but you're not quite ready , that it's not just you there is going to be a gradual ripping off of the band aid from a collective perspective. From a collective, we [00:22:00] have a kind of back and forth push and pull for the next two years. The band aid is going to be ripping off slowly. When it comes to fear and when it comes to change and it comes to all of the energies you're feeling right now I think one of the best things to do is to find your own Fear formula I should trademark it your own fear formula What are things that are specific to you that are gonna work for you? So that you can navigate as you move forward, kind of like your cheat sheet, something you can return to over and over again that feels like you, that resonates with you, that doesn't feel like a quote, that doesn't feel like generic advice, that doesn't feel like someone projecting their own lives onto you.

 I'm going to tell you what worked for me but obviously you're going to find your own version. This whole notion that we get of just jump, if you're really committed to your dream, you just jump and do it. That's shit, because a snake doesn't do that.

The snake grows its skin first before it sheds the other one. Whatever that version is [00:23:00] for you, it's okay. That's your way. When you find yourself stagnating, if you have self awareness, which is always the first step of transformation, You're going to realize, okay, I'm stagnating, I'm playing safe, and then you're going to either figure that out on your own, and you're going to make steps, or you're going to find someone to help you because you've called yourself out on your own bullshit.

But somebody telling you, take that risk, because I did, not only is that their path and not your path, but that's also not going to make you take action. It's just going to make you feel bad for what you're doing. 

 I'm going to talk to you about three things that I do that have worked for me. A lot of these are stories from my years of entrepreneurship and my years of a pretty crazy spiritual journey. And I've been through some pretty crazy stuff in my life. 

Maybe it'll help you find your own formula.

And the first one is. Look at worst case scenario and then get comfortable with worst case scenario because we can make [00:24:00] peace with worst case scenario. Then whatever else happens, you're okay with. Number two is that I surround myself with people who are doing crazy shit themselves. Life stuff, career stuff, business stuff. That's why mastermind groups work. That's why Think and Grow Rich is a famous book because the more you surround yourself with like minded beings, the less your subconscious is going to tell you that you don't belong. We all want to belong. That is a human need a primal instinct. Love, safety, and belonging.,

 A couple of years ago, I lived this life where I lived off the universe. And I blew up a lot of aspects of my life, and I was living a very eccentric life. I didn't have a home, I didn't have an income, and I was just letting the universe show me the way.

It never let me down, which has helped me in other areas of my life in terms of manifesting I could have ended up in a shack or [00:25:00] ended up in a living in a millionaire's house for free. The latter happened, which is a story for another day. My point is, is I was living a very unusual life.

 I had all my stuff in my car and I drove up north to Mount Shasta in California. And Mount Shasta is, , considered one of the vortexes of Earth. Sedona is another one. , it's considered the sister to Mount Fuji and it's considered a very spiritual place. post pandemic, a lot of people have moved up there, the dynamic of that has changed, but when I used to go up to Shasta, it was a very pure place, and it was a place that people went for seeking.

 When I left the Bay Area, I think I popped into Whole Foods, and one of the most Silicon Valley esque Whole Foods there is to get some healthy snacks for the drive, and I'm sitting there, In a car full of stuff, no home, no idea what the fuck I'm doing, and I'm surrounded by people who are working at Apple, who probably are making half a million dollars a year.

I know people from business school work in Silicon Valley, easily, a couple is pulling north of a million a year, that's not [00:26:00] unusual, right? In the Tesla, perfect life, unquote, right? We all know that all that stuff is not always what appears, but. I'm sitting there with my shit in my car, no fucking idea what I'm doing.

I feel like a complete loser, right? I drive up north I pull into the local like there's a natural health food store there. Again, this is a couple years ago. Things may have changed. There was one store in the whole town. It was a natural health food store that everyone gathered at.

I pull in there. And everyone's car looked like mine, and a lot of them looked junkier than mine, not that I'm judging, . And I was like, I found my people. So through feeling a sense of belonging. That fear went away. So where can you find your people?

Whatever it is that you're doing right now. Is it people who are changing careers late in life? Is it people who are starting businesses? Whatever it is you're afraid of. You got to find your [00:27:00] people. Very important. Aquarius is a sign of community and it is a sign of collective, progressive community. And the third thing, this is very individual to me, is I find that the more I fatigue my body, the less I allow my mind to go. So walks, exercise, things like that, they help me greatly.

I mentioned in other episodes, I do hot yoga. I find that when I sweat. I am a lot more chilled out. Sweating is very primal. It's very much associated with the sign of Scorpio, but sweating also releases fear hormones you're releasing a lot of the stuff and a lot of the chemicals that are driving those fears in your brain.

 Then you can get down to what is really going on. Finding community. That's doing what you want to do or makes you feel less crazy, finding your individual way to release fear out of your body. It might be out of your body. It could be art. Sometimes you're gonna have some tactic. Something that you could do tomorrow Whatever it is Find that and use that [00:28:00] and the third thing is look at worst case scenario and come to peace with that and sometimes worst case scenario would be like Oh, I'm gonna leave my apartment cuz I can't pay rent Worst case scenario could be like, you're afraid to get up on stage you're afraid people are gonna laugh at you, whatever your worst case scenario is, come to peace with that because not only will that make you feel calmer, but it's also going to , not happen. Very likely. You're probably gonna exceed your expectations of what was gonna happen and you are then going to be more likely to take risk. When I went up to Shasta and I didn't have a place to stay, I walked into Mount Shasta.

ran into the one person I knew up there from a seminar that I'd done. She was house sitting for somebody that lived on the Mineral Springs and I ended up not only having a place to stay but I ended up living on the Mineral Springs for a month, which if you do not know, that is why people go up to Mount Shasta is to be near the Mineral Springs. 

Gives you some things to think about as you are thinking about transmuting fear into a catalyst [00:29:00] that drives you forward in this very primal year that we are in transmutation. Living life in alignment on the prosperous path, prosperous being more than money, but it's also alchemy and alchemy is when you change the chemical form or the chemical structure of something.

Once you transmute something, you alchemize something. It no longer looks like what it did before. It no longer is what it is before. When you take a risk. Or you face a fear about something and you come on the other side. You are no longer that person because you have fundamentally changed your subconscious mind.

You have changed the alchemical nature of your body. Brain when you're in the process of reinvention, don't be afraid to do it your own way and lean into where you are and who you are. Snakes don't like to be touched [00:30:00] when they're Shedding. It's dangerous to touch a snake when it's shedding because they will lash out. They want to be in their process. Part of it is that when they're shedding, their eyes glaze over 

Can't see. They already are sensory beings. They live through their instincts. So when they're going through this process, they just want to be cocooned and internal and we're like that too. It's okay to be a hermit. And have that transformation and come back out the other side.

You don't have to feel like you have to do it in front of people. Everything with social media now is we have to broadcast our whole life. You don't have to broadcast your whole life as you're going through transformation. You can come out the other side and share what you want to share. Pisces is the last sign of the zodiac, is often associated with snake imagery. The last few days of the moon cycle is associated with the snake.

The more you surround yourself with people that get that energy, the more you surround yourself with people who give you permission to be yourself, the more you're going to feel like you're on the right path and the more you're going to feel comfortable and confident. That's just part of being [00:31:00] human.

We need that tribe. We need that Aquarian energy. find your tribe, find your people, find them online, find them in person. Mentors that are going to be on the path you're on, shedding the mentors that are no longer serving you, the teachers, the podcasts you listen to, maybe you're pivoting and evolving, the clients that you work with are no longer a fit for you, the offers that you have, who are you listening to, who's no longer an alignment for you.

All of that is up right now. All of that is up right now. I think that's very age of Aquarius. It's very try different things. It's very much be your authentic self and your authentic tribe will find you and that's all there is to it.

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